this year ripped me apart

and assembled my entrails on the floor

the aching lungs

they gasp for air and want to live.

i could grab all my parts from the floor

stuff them back inside

and sew my meatbag up;

there is no question about this.

it has been done before.

the question then is if

i should do this myself or if

i could rely on my friends

to help me while my hands are indisposed.

maybe i have people like that

maybe my hands dont have to hurt like this

maybe what needs to be done is not all on me.

i could do it myself:

there is no question about this.

maybe there should be.